Nocturnal Poïesis

Here I am, in the middle of the night. I say I am procrastinating but what I am really doing is
A) Trying to decide what camera to buy within my budget (around 20k)
B) Looking at WP plugins for a site that I am planning to launch
C) Wondering about the many things that are changing extremely fast in my life and how I am coping with them.

In my (sort of) hectic schedule of maintaining tech blogs I get paid to write for, I sometimes feel like I am procrastinating when I am doing something that is not getting work done. This is a strange thing between me taking time out for myself and trying to stay on schedule so that I have time for myself at the end of the week.

I think the paradox in that statement is clear enough without me explaining it further. In my eyes, this is a tussle between taking time out for myself in fragments and taking time out in large chunks like entire days of half days. There is also the thing about starting my own website to start making a sizable passive income. I know I am sitting on a hot niche that nobody is doing but I wonder how long it will last before somebody does it.

Once I set my mind to it, the site should not take more than one week to finish but I feel as if it is impossible for me to take that much time off.

In any case, I am a lot more solvent than I was when I wrote last time. That has unlocked quite a few new features in my life. I am more confident and am actively trying to be socially active. It helps that I am no longer ashamed to go out because I have no money to spare for the little things like a cab and a drink or two that others in that milieu take for granted.

It has also unlocked the ability to explore my creative potentials. Buy equipment that I have always wanted to work on and be generally free to do whatever I choose to do. So if this income does continue (and really should), I will finally be moving to a place of my own and start a new life -- my way.

Now that I have gotten this sudden impulse to blog out of my way, I will get back to my work, which is also blogging. I am going to the Shpongle gig in Mumbai this December and then I plan to take a short vacation somwhere close by. All the while maintaining my arsenal of tech blogs through Reliance Net-connect. I really hope nothing goes with this plan because it will seriously jeopardize my work. However, I do hope that I have built enough of a reputation for being reliable for it to matter too much if it does happen.

So what I was saying is this – attending this gig and taking this vacation with my significant other (no, not wife yet) is going to be the most expensive thing that I have ever done for myself, on my own and with my or anyone else's money. And yes, it does have this feeling of liberation being able to fund it all on my own without flinching much.

Bottom line? I feel a great change happening and the tide is so strong that I am having trouble navigating. It has great things in store for me but I want force my way into choosing the next stop  myself rather than washing up somewhere I did not intend. With my stubbornness in these cases though, it is not all that likely to happen.

So I guess I will just post again when I feel like it. Thanks for listening, whoever you are.